unrequited love

i have been tru many unrequited love..o i might call it one sided love...it's one of the most painful feelings that we can go thru..maybe afta seeing sumone we love,love sumone else..dat's harder..but still..the pain is enuf to make ur world a living hell hole..i rather b hit by a bus den feel dz way ever again..no big apple's hot n fresh donuts or david cook's voice can make me feel better...i've given up on chocolates long time ago..dz time..this one sided love thing is even harder..it gets u deep in the heart, breaking and tearing it into pieces while ur struggling and trying ur best to put it back into pieces,gasping for air trying to breathe and never stop hoping that one day it will all get better..n the moment u wake up everyday on ur comfy n secured bed...a smile is finally plastered on ur face instead of the usual tears stained face..when that moment came u can finally feel the sunshine shining on ur face with gentle warmth and care..u can finally appreciate life for the way it is..i'm not trying to crush ur dreams of living a depressed-free life..but dz is wut life is..each n everyone must have gone tru dz painfully true moments..i av jz been freed by a one-month relationship which supposed to mean nothing to me..but HELL i was so WROnG! it got me after months of trying to avoid it..the worst part is dat i only have been dating him for a month..y oh y dat i even have to feel dz way..its not an option..my option is to live a happy n carefree life...not dz kind of life..all i can say is its tuff to move on..u gotta stop hoping and never look back at the past..never ever think of dat sumone again..dats how to do it..but its hard...living in those memories is my comfort zone..i neva wana wake up n move on...i dun want to even breathe the air outside the zone..its unsecured...but what he said dat day..'i dun love anyone'...it slapped the truth out of me..i woke up n now im moving on..well at least trying to..hoping the longing i had for him will vanished one day n will stop concquering my life forever...